It’s no secret that I love food. I enjoy eating it, watching programmes about it, talking about it. Heck, I probably dream about it!
Since deciding to get fitter, I’ve had to examine my relationship with food. I’ve used food for celebration, nourishment, social interaction, comfort and reward. Whilst I don’t see food as my enemy, I accept that my levels of consumption have led to weight gain that has impacted my body’s ability to do certain things.
I’ve tried so many different methods to lose weight – Weight Watchers, Overeaters Anonymous, a dietician, diet pills, talking therapy, Slimming World, etc. These have all worked to some extent but I ended up putting weight back on when I slipped back into old eating habits.
I decided to stop going to Slimming World two months ago because I got fed up with the group thing and my mood being dictated by what the scales said every week. I figured I could get accountability from my fitness studio, checking in with a Personal Trainer once a week.
Sounds like a plan, right? Well, my exercise regime is consistent and I love training 3 to 4 times a week. I’m stronger, fitter, have more stamina, I feel great and love what I see in the mirror.
So why do I feel like a failure when it comes to food? I try to keep a food diary but I give up mid-week! I certainly eat more healthily than I used to, but things like chips, crisps, cake and chocolate have crept back in after limiting them for over a year. Have I well and truly fallen off the wagon??? (Rhetorical question!!)
Why is it that I feel great yet somehow feel like I should feel bad about food?? It’s confusing and frustrating!
Here are some questions I need to ask myself:
What is my goal? Has it changed from the original one that I set for myself?
What’s important to me about this goal and what are the benefits if I achieve it?
What are the consequences if I don’t achieve my goal?
(Watch this space as I figure this out!)
Are there any questions you’re asking yourself right now about your fitness journey? Drop a comment if you can relate to any of this. Feedback welcome.